Lacking the Self Love
03.01.2004 @ 9:33 p.m.

I can�t help but feel as though he�s lying to me again�or always�Yes, always.

It is a horrible feeling to no longer trust the instincts you once very much prided yourself on.

My marriage has helped me to become someone I don�t recognize, someone I am not entirely thrilled with and a person I don�t particularly like�

It�s to the point that I wonder if I�d want to be around me if I had a choice�

I can�t say with conviction that yes, I would.